Stress + tired

Damn tired and stress and and and...Sigh =( I have got so many things to worried about...Why life have to be such a bitch? WHY??? Can anybody tell me why!!!Assignment piling on the table and guess whats the greatest news is : my design has no progress YET!!! =( How to die, tell me how to die??? Arghh...I have been stuck in front of my computer the whole day already but still reading just NOT enough about the Y generations' need...Sigh, I am super damn hungry now but the thought of walking out my bedroom to the kitchen seems so far and UNREACHABLE!!!

Dammit~ Can someone invent some high technology food just like what the 700 years later punya energy refresh drink showed in the Wall-E? Can can can? Can lah~ I am so upset with my life at the moment...Nabeh~ All thanks to that ShinChan idiot and Urban Architect Wannabe who think they are the superior in design...SOHAIZzz (opps, pardon the pun)!!!

Blah~ I hate it when someone who don't know anything about your project and ASSUMED that she know everything about it and hence started to comment non-stop on what I supposedly be doing...Sigh...Why la you so kaypo on my work? Got nothing better to do meh? Biatch, how about i give you a piece of advice here can : Mind your own business and f**k off!!! You are not the lecturer and you don't have the right to comment on my work while you yourself are not good at doing yours right *L on my forehead*

SIGHHHHHHHHHH...Signing off...Gotta go eat something and continue reading =(

Semester 9, 2008

Final Project IA 421 : Restaurant Nostalgika

Realized and moved on

Teehee...I've got nothing to blog about actually =P But then again, for the sake of writing down something when deep thoughts start to roll in my mind...Its all good you know? Haha...Oh well, life has been boring again these day cause final project for design is kicking in...Oh no, here goes my sleepless night schedule coming next =(

Hmm...So, don't know what actually happened to me these days...I kind of came out realized a lot of things in my life...Things that once I was so stubborn to listen at other people's opinion and not to say that I even argued with them cause I thought it shouldn't be like how they said!!! Hmm...Stupid ain't it?

Well, I guess time is the prove of everything...You know, time pass and people change!!! I don't know? Maybe just the change of mind, change of attitude, change of whatsoever...But I guess after all this is not so god damn important cause we do have other better things to do, right? Then again, we must have to admit that the process of change IS...And rather its the most important part of everything!!!

I always believe : Things happened for good...It changed you to a better person, prepares you a better tomorrow and it definitely makes you stronger and tougher to face the threats of the outside world...I know how much I can handle and I hope to make no regrets in my life...Well, looking back at all the heart breaks, disappointments over disappointment and so as other awful let down things that eventually happened to me...I realized it really gave me a lot of courage and challenge to experience life that other people don't...Indeed, I have gone through way enough at this age of mine and I am really happy for myself to survive and get through all these shit by now...So, don't you dare judge me just enough from what you see...I could be just more than what you think I might be, so lets get our own life and move on...

Quotes from Linkin Park's [Leave Out All The Rest] to you -

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
'Cause no one else care

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I am done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Don't be affraid
I've taken all my beating
I've shed but I'm me

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are

A gathering date

Hmm...Not exactly as what you might be thinking *whack* But yeah, it just a normal night out with a close friend of mine =)

Anyway, really had some fun time tonight catching up and gossiping with you my dear...Thanks the pekok if you know who you are =P Hehe...Sorry, can't stop laughing whenever I think of why I used to give you funny names...Lol...I bet we were still young and childish back then huh? Its been a long time since then and its good that we still keeping up the jokes and updates for each other =) For the good sweet time eh?

Oh well, actually theres nothing much for me to really blog about the night as both of us were so busy catching up with each others' latest stories and we didn't even have the chance to snap a single picture for ourselves...Ala cheh, not like it matters anyway...

So, the movie of tonight was Wall-E which is a production done by the PIXAR Studio of the ever famous Disney Pictures...Hmm...Hey guys, do go and watch it if you haven't watched yet cause I bet you wouldn't want to regret for such nice show Disney had put up with...Hah, now I have to also admit that this is a damn cute animation movie which they are just fine great to please everyones' satisfaction for watching such 'kiddy' film...Well well, no offence aight!!!
After movie, we headed off to the Gardens to have our dinner at the Flying Chillies =D Spicy Thai food are made available here...Wooptiedo + Yumyum!!!
This restaurant do has some eye-catching facade entrance and the simplicity design of it evolves around the common white color as main ambiance but colorful lighting and those lil soft comfy pillows worked as the compliments to make this space looked more lively...
Anyway, we ordered 2 side dishes and steamed rice for both of us and I am lovin' it very very much =) Hehe...Spicy food can never leave me just alright...Would love to come by next time and try out their TomYam Kung for sure *drool* I can't wait...Who wanna date me this time? Hehe...Ignore the perasan-ness and ciaoz~

Mamma Mia! The Movie

Mamma mia, here I go again. My, my, how can I resist you?

Aighty then...Guys, heres the snippet of Mamma Mia! The Movie if you all wants to know how roughly can the storyline go...
Donna (Meryl Streep - the one stars in the Devils Wear Prada), an independent single mother who owns a small hotel on an idyllic Greek island, is about to let go Sophie (Amanda Seyfried), the spirited daughter she's raised alone to her fiance Sky (Dominic Cooper)...For Sophie's wedding, Donna has invited her two life-long best girlfriends, the practical and no-nonsense Rosie and the wealthy yet multi-divorcee Tonya, from her one-time backing band called Donna and the Dynamos...But Sophie has secretly invited three other guest of her own...On a quest to find the identity of her father to walk her down the aisle, she brings back three men, the businessman Sam Carmichael (Pierce Brosnan - the one stars in James Bond : Die Another Day), the banker Harry Bright (Colin Firth) and the adventurer Bill Anderson (Stellan Skarsgard) from Donna's past to the Mediterrenean paradise which they had visited there some 20 years earlier...Over the 24 chaotic magical hours, new love will bloom and the romances will be rekindled on this lust island full of possibilities...Hmm...Interesting~

Oh well, I am just here writing in some of my expectations on this movie, which is pretty much based on the blockbuster stage musical and its ever popular song sang by ABBA, about a bride, her mum and the three possible dads...So, to first start off with the acting in this movie...Just like what was expected for how Meryl Streep had acted in the previous movie named Devils Wear Prada, I bet this time her 'craziness' is gonna be some real fun acting to reckon with...I have not know much about her but to compare what she has acted last and now is something totally different in acting perspective though she still stay the same 'richness' in money wise =p
Next...The wedding party of pretty girl - Amanda Seyfried and hot guy - Dominic Cooper which expected gonna be real awesome one because the place to held the event is simply way across what defines a paradise!!! Jeez, the Greek island of Kalokairi is beautiful~ Now it makes me feel like just fly myself there NOW!!! Haha...Nah, I am just kidding~

What else? Hmm...Dramas, dramas and more dramas perhaps...Other than that, I think thats pretty much it before I can get myself a pair of tickets to go see it premier on the GSC at OneUtama with other Nuffnang Glitterati members on the 22nd September 2008...Pray for me fellows~

Updates

**FYI : Please be well prepare for this very super long entry among all, at the moment =P These are all the lil updates of what I have been doing for the few days, which to be exact, since last Saturday onwards...ENJOY reading you people~

Sorry...Been really busy the whole last week and this week but TGIF (Thank God It's Friday) tonight, so here I am blogging the night out!!! Hehe...I know la, me perasan sikit won't make you die straight away right? Hmm...So, where should I start then...

Saturday Dinner

Okay, gonna make this one short and simple cause I don't have any pictures to blog about it actually...

Went out for dinner with Lynn at one of our favorite Italian restaurant in Bandar Puteri Puchong...Well, as usual, her very last minute plan when she text me over Facebook to check out whats my plan for that weekend...Obviously, turned out that I was pretty free on schedule but supposedly I need to work on my group assignments which I was then not in the mood to do it cause none of the group mates were putting effort to finish things up...So, I went for it and had our very usual long long conversation after meal =)
Money spent on dinner : RM 33

Sunday Outing

Now it goes the Sunday plan...Hehe, I think this outing was pretty much of the continuation of yesterday's dinner as people involved was the same and we talked about almost the same topic like we did the whole day long =P
Anyway...It was a full day out to The Curve - shopping, Cineleisure - movies, Ikano - shopping and IKEA - more shopping!!! Haha...I know I should be saving up my money but seems like I just couldn't resist the temptation when I see theres still money inside my bank account...Hmm...Bad Caney...This is BAD BAD BAD!!! Hahaha...

Oh welll...Despite of all the shopping done in a day, I think I kind of spent a lot particularly for the food we ate =S Ealier on before the movie, we had our brunch at Penang House, popcorn combo set for movie, some 'healthy' fruit juice for tea time and last but not least, Shabu Shabu for dinner!!!

OMG~ Can you believe now that we have a BIG BIG stomach to fill in all the food? Jeez, what happened to our diet plan Lynn? What about the losing weight? Damn...I feel bad for myself now...

So, CONCLUSION of the day is :

' Pokkai + Fat Fat = Sad BabyNey x 100 '

Money spent on movie : RM 10.50
Money spent on clothes : RM 20
Money spent in IKEA : RM 9+
Money spent on food : RM 70+

Penang Friends Outing

Ok, last one to go...Finally got settled and done with both the assignments for IA Dissertation 499 class which to be the submission of site analysis in power point slides and presentation boards and so as my very own proposal paper for final dissertation project...Gah, got so annoyed with the site analysis project due to the stupidest ever lecturer and also the group problem...But thank God its all done and over now =)
Anyway, after so many hardworking days that I had put myself through...I thought of getting myself some rewards which of all things, to get my very first own J.Co Donuts...No, its not a dozen of it but HALF a dozen which to me its already good enough to make me happy all over again =D
So, whats your flavor, tell me whats your flavor? Damn...These donuts are nuts aight...It makes you go high to just bite off every single bits of it...Then and again, I don't actually remembered whats the name for all the assorted flavors I chose but what I did remember was CHOCOLATES, lots and lots of chocolates =D See, I told you...Its good enough to make me happy all over again...
So, back to the main story...I was there at Sunway Pyramid to meet up with Bin and her boyfriend, Xiao Fu, actually...Oh well, first time meeting the boyfriend and also the first time after the last time I met up with her...Gosh, its almost half a year plus back then...I am glad that we still made our efforts to at least meet up with each other whenever we can =* Thats what a true friendship will be like =)

Hmm...So, gatherings after gathering...Thats what I am talking about...After we were done with Sunway Pyramid, Asia Cafe at SS15 was the next station before we then decided that we should meet up with Hui at somewhere near to where shes staying, which indirectly we are directing ourself to our favorite hang out spot - Kei Tak Sek tong sui pou at SS2 whenever theres someone in the gang coming down from Penang...
Time flies and we die =P Haha...Nola, thats not what I mean exactly...What I do mean is that our ever long long conversation and gossiping came to an end when the shop starts putting off lights to finish up their business for the day...Then here you go again...More and MORE CAMWHORE-ING time =D
Money spent on donuts : RM 11
Money spent on dinner : RM 25+

Ahh...I am tired...Nite nite people~ Muacks

Giving up, waking up

I am feeling damn tired of all this...
I am feeling exhausted to keep putting back things together...
I am feeling so lost to not be myself again...
I am feeling hollow inside out...
BUT then and again,
I really had enough of what tortures my heart...
I don't know if I ever gonna make a good decision in this...
I don't know if I ever gonna regret 9 9 after this...
I don't know if I ever gonna change my mind and run after you...
I don't know what should I do really...
BUT what i do know is,
I don't see the same you had for me anymore...

Oh, come on...
Please do tell me that I am right to do all this...
Please do support my decision making...
Please do give me some respect of how I should live my life...
Please do keep quiet and shut up right there and then...

I want things to be over now...
I want giving up hope that 'us' will never gonna happen...
I want to live life happily and simple...
I want what I deserved to have...

____________________________________enough said

Fall for you...DEEP DEEP!!!

Fall For You
by Secondhand Serenade

The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl guy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl guy like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breath in so deep
Breath me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl guy like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl guy like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

A letter to a friend

Hey...I am back!!! Sorry...Again for so many days since i last blogged, just feel like scribbling down something new right here today...Feeling a lil emo tonight~ Anyway, apart from being good and all (yeah, perasan sendiri...I know =P) I am still feeling sick ever since the very last week which I think I did mentioned about it at here before...Sigh, yes that I still having the bad bad cough and I am actually wondering when I am gonna get rid of it =(
Hmm...So, how should I start off to blog about this entry...Well, nothing really that important though...Just maybe some of the lil thoughts over true friendship kind of problem that I think until now I am still searching for an answer for it...Sigh, I am just being a typical me that is sensitive and 'aggresive' towards every single details that is happening in my life...I can never simply let things go, can I?
Been feeling a lil gap among us these days, don't know what actually went wrong but hopefully it shouldn't be something serious...Right? So, how are you feeling these days? What are you up to? Well, I guess these are those questions that I have been wanting to ask you face to face but I also thought maybe you might need some time to cool off your own problem that you are facing...Whats really bothering your mind my dear? From what I have been observing lately, you don't seems like you want to share out your problems with me anymore =( Why ah? Apa macam? Why are we standing so far apart from each other and yet we are actually so close to know about every single things that has happened in a day...It really make me feels like as if I am a few thousand miles away from you now...Sitting down and start thinking deep...I can barely recall anything that we actually talked over the night in anyone of these days after our very last bonding session...Have I been really annoyed or pain in the ass to you that now you don't even want to bring up anything at me anymore? I am terribly sorry if I have ever been one to you...
Hmm...Still remembered those day when we used to share every single stories and gossip with each other and believe it not, the thoughts of every single bits of it are still clearly fresh in my mind...Really missed those sweet old times we spent together...All the laughter and tears we shared!!! Hehe...
(p/s : Don't get me wrong in this cause I am pretty much straight straight 'terus lurus' and I am definitely not 'sengeted'...Hmm...)

For once and forever, I never really thought we could actually be that close as a friend...Its hard for me to actually find true friendship when most of the people I know around me are so politically influenced by the culture there...I am feeling so grateful to be one of yours and thankful for everything that put us through...Babe, remember no matter what I will always be here for you...To lend a hand, to borrow my shoulder, to listen with ears and hug with arms...Don't worry, I won't be stingy to you =p

When friendship undergo a test
It's often found that old friends are still the best
The sampler on the parlor wall
Has these few lines written which they say it all
The best of friends can change a frown
Into a smile when you're feeling down
The best of friends will understand
Your little trials and then she lend a hand
The best of friends will always share
Your secret dreams and fear because they care
The best of friends worth more than a gold
So give all the love and a heart can hold

Good Guys vs. Bad Guys

Haha...I know its just so out of randomness for me to bring up such topic today but believe me not, I am sure there is a lot of you out there gonna be nodding your head agreed to what I will be explaining later =D

So!!! Heres the fact that first of all I think each and everyone of you might have a lil different thoughts over the word L.O.V.E - to love or to be loved? Well, I personally believe that none of us have the will-power to choose which categories you want to or should fall in love with another and there is certainly no right or wrong for you to fall in love with someone whom you really care and definitely can't live without...Hmm, starting to sound a lil like the philosopher talking ady *tsk tsk*

ANYWAY...Speaking of such, I do find majority in our girls who would strongly agree with me that we girls often let the bad boys trample all over our heart while on the other hand, crushes the good ones under our heels yet still proclaimed and wondered 'Where have the good guys gone? Why BAD boys can make such GOOD boyfriends but GOOD boys sucks at being so!!! Aren't they both guys?' Hahaha...Ironic don't we?

Then and again, I do believe that there is always a truth of every woman that lies secretly underneath whenever she fall in love with someone...No matter who and how old the person is, they always want to fall in such a way that they are being helplessly abandoned, dizzying in the ride of highs and lows of heart-bursting happiness and so as those heart-breaking misery that will make them remember for life and definitely not forgetting every single bit of it...Yeah, you got me right!!! FALL DEEP DEEP!!! Hehe...

Undoubtedly, good guys will always be the rational choice or rather the logical option for girls when they grew older and tried to settle down for better future...When we girls finally made decision with our minds and reached by the rational thoughts, the good guys will win our physical beings but still not our hearts...Sadly and YES SADLY NOT OUR HEARTS!!! In spite, we girls often follow what our hearts tell us so and there goes the reason why we keep loving and falling for the bad guys while wishing it would be some passionate and adventurous love even though they will enslave us in becoming their servants that would pander to their every desires...

Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love~

So if ever come over to question between right and wrong in love matters, I would really be hard-pressed in deciding which would be which... Or rather saying for the better or worse!!! We all know BAD BOYS clearly make much better BOYFRIENDS but at the same time I would have to also admit and remind you girls that GOOD BOYS probably make better HUSBAND!!!

Haha...Feeling the love now? Hmm...I certainly have and heres the last verse for you who read till the very last part of this...Decide but don't regret!!! Peace out~

Gathering Dinner

Hola people~

I am back!!! Hehe...Wassup everyone? Well, don't mistaken me for abandoning the blog again...Actually I am still sick BUT thank God its recovering though my tekak still pain pain and so as when the temperature turns cold at night, I will get the non-stop coughing time just like now...After all, I am feeling all good =) Don't worry, I am old enough to take care of myself...NeyNey is big big babygirl already okay~Hahaha...
Anyway, cut off all the crap...I just came home from a small gathering dinner with my babes actually...Oh well, last minute plan and we had it at the Bumbu Bali Restaurant, somewhere around Bandar Puteri Puchong if you ever get to know how famous their Balinese food are there for you to crave for...Hmm...So, to start off with the gathering story...Let's begin with how I got to know about it, shall we? Ahaa...It was Ian and Nadine's idea to plan for a gathering dinner at first...Well, more people were been invited actually but being typical of our gang punya 'promise'...It ended up with only the three of us left...Hmm...Anyway, I am not complaining cause after oh-so-long finally the three of us is meeting up again for more and MORE gossip time =p Hehe...Too bad, we couldn't help ourself nor resist the urge whenever we have time to hang out with each other...Sigh, now that I really missed those time when we all were still young and 'innocent' or rather to say being the typical fresh-bies in the all black university who gets woo-wow psycho about the culture there >.< Hmm...Time flies really fast...Another three weeks time, lil Dinie bear is flying off to London!!! Boohoo~ My babes leaving one by one...Suz is already there in London and so now Dine is joining her...When its gonna be my turn? I wonder...I DO REALLY WONDER...Sigh =(

SICK

...I AM SICK...

Sigh...Why oh why? Today woke up feeling something weird about myself...Damn tired at first and then started feeling my throat pain pain...Then, there it goes - FEVER!!! Arghhh...I hate feeling body ache like this...I hate feeling sor throat...I hate feeling my nose clogged...I hate eating with no taste at all...

HELP!!!

Sigh...I know no bodies care...But really hoping he still do *smack for thinking terlebih* Okay, whatever then...Heading off to bed soon...I need LOTS OF REST as tomorrow working still =( Ish, now i know money is so so not the very easy to earn!!! Hah, ESPECIALLY when you need to stand whole day long~

Party the CocoBanana Way

PARTEHHH~~
Last Friday night went party with the girl rangers at CocoBanana, Sunway Pyramid...Well, it was rather the very first time in the club with another 2 new faces to party with =) Hah!! Fun time indeed with free flow of liquor and so as our version of HOT + SEXY dance move...Hehe...Not sure whether we had killed some of the 'uncles' in the club not, but Jaslyn certainly has someone who actually walked over and say Hi with and then they had a few words there on the dance floor =D

So, the girls who attended were Christine, Jaslyn, Me, HuiYing and SuMin...Majority of us were in dress and the night just gone wilder when everyone start tossing their cup of liquor!!
Bosses in the house of that night was SuMin and Jaslyn's friend, Chong How whom with his friends, opened 3 bottles of Chivas for the party...Everyone had fun cause all I remembered was drink - dance floor - drink - dance floor!!None than others but i would like to just comment a lil about the club...Well, it was right before the party that i heard from Nadine that the club is full of 'uncles and aunties' which in a sense means no 'leng zai and leng lui' for us to see that night...
Well, I wasn't surprised that it really turned out to be true but rather feeling a BIG DISAPPOINTMENT towards the music they played that night which were really out of connection from one song to another!! Sigh...No more next visit to the club, i swear~
Anyway, this has been chosen as THE PICTURE OF THE DAY =D

Brand New Start

Ohhhh yea...You see it damn right!! Hahaha...I AM NOW BACK TO MUH BLOGGING DAYS after God-knows-how-freaking-long since I last posted the very first entry to this blogspot...Hahaha...

Oh well...Still remembered how I was laughing my breath off at my friends for starting at their very first new blog entry just few weeks back before I came back to KL...How ironic!! Hahaha...I know, I know...Hehe...Hmm, now that I wonder what will be their response seeing me blogging my very 'wonderful' story of the day and so as the coming uncountable emo post entries on this lil page =p

Ala...Sorry, can't help myself in this...I have been feeling damn bored staying in the house alone-lone =( Boohoo...I have the whole apartment to myself and access to all rooms cause the very kind owner of the house let me stay for the last few months left till I finish up my course by paying ONLY my room rental...Yea, I know I should be thankful, happy and whatsoever...But, living all alone by myself simply makes me feel down!! Arghh...

Anyway, life has been a bitch here in KL and so was back in Penang...Well, I am not saying that I don't enjoy my life here BUT the thoughts that are playing in my mind and so does the worst ever feeling of trying to get over things are simply depressing in all sense...SIGH!!

Okla, i think thats for now...I am so tired to think of any liao =( Ciaoz~