All of a sudden, emo starts striking me back these days and I just can't tell how much I'm missing my babe, TineTine Gan who is in KL now... Tonnes of hugs and kisses to my darling =)
Ney missing our Koala Bear Hugs
Lately, lots of the very 'wistful' thinking has been going on and on around my head and I'm kinda lost track of how to handle the situation already... Its been a while I'm getting this but now it seems like more thinking gets more hurting (Erm, I'm not sure how to exactly draft out this theory BUT it is how I'm actually feeling it right now) Sigh... Life is SICKENING when more and more dramas happened, don't you think so?
Buddy luncheon @ Jack's Place, OneUtama
Well... Afterall I still know life has to move on and on even theres a lot of stepping stones pilling up along the way to trip you down... Likewise or maybe its all another challenge to take, another path to walk across, another end breaching to a new begining...I know I'm always not alone to go through all these and I'm glad that YOU always care... Hugs tight tight... Night people =)
WOOHOO~~~ I've finally got my lil baby vroom vroom =D
Hehehe... Don't you all agree he is just such a cute lil handsome baby?See see see... He has got nice color, nice skirting, nice bodyline and most importantly, his OWNER also very the NICE too =P ROFLMAO *Ish, damn very the perasan betul* Anyway, I'm pretty sure lots of people around me gonna be surprised by the news and whats more with me having a CAR!!! Hahaha... Yeah, my very own car which I have to fork out my salary every month to pay for the instalments and so as to jaga / feed this cute lil thing!!!
Hehehe... Oh well, its part of life and people do change their mind ONCE in a while =P Hmm... Alrighty then...Signing off -luv my baby-xoxo-hugs-
HOLA~~~*honk honk honk* NEY IS BACK, my blog is coming back ALIVE =) Hehehe...Sorry la peeps, I've been busying for the past few weeks because Bossy Phua Ah Chong had assigned too many projects to poor lil Phua Ah Ney =( Sigh...Working life really SUX big time!!! Shooh shooh...
Anyway, sad stories and emo feelings aside...Now I want to declare that today is officially a Happy Yippie Yay Yay Day for me and everyone =D Yes, you seen it right its TODAY 06/04/2009 ONLY =D Wheee... I am super happy, excited and hyper . psyched over what has been going on this whole day long...Seriously its my day today and I guess theres no word could best describe how I'm feeling deep inside now...Well, perhaps more smiley face icon like these =) X) =D XD explain??? LOL...Ok, this is so very the random sial =P
The clock is clicking and ticking...Counting down the days to my BIG burfday on the 9th April 2009 (THURSDAY) left only 3 more days and its only another 5 more days left till I reunite with my KL babes again =D Fwuahhh...Its damn '2 phats 2 fiuliot' (too fast . too furious) for me to handle it already =P
LETS COME PARTY PEOPLE YELL 'HEY...HAH...HEY...HAHHH!!!'
Hehehe...Sorry, I'm a bit off . abnormal today...Too much ohm for too many good stuff that had happened on me =) I *heart* today =* Muacks!!! Oh, not forgetting to make a dedication shout out here...
For everything there is a season, And a time for every matter under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; A time to mourn, and a time to dance; A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together; A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing; A time to seek, and a time to lose; A time to keep, and a time to throw away; A time to tear, and a time to sew; A time to keep silence, and a time to speak; A time to love, and a time to hate, A time for war, and a time for peace.
- MAKE LOVE, NOT WAR- _______________________________________________________________________
After so long of being jobless and some unbelievable account of interview sessions that come along with a very pathetic drama at here if you haven't heard of it yet or had totally missed out what I had gone through these 2 months...I am proud to announce that I've FINALLY got myself A JOB!!! Yes, I am talking about A JOB here, not the B Job, C Job or D Job, mind your very 'uncultured' mind can? Hehehe...
So...Getting all psyched up and now can I have your cooperation with me and lets gather around and shout out loud the following line of excitement???
Ready...
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WOOP...TIEE...DOOO!!! *Who wants to volunteer on some pom-pom dance please?*
Hehehe...YAY!!! No more jobless, no more feeling worthless and useless staying at home doing nothing anymore...I'm glad to finally promoted myself from 'land-measuring-officer' (aka jobless interior design's graduate who stays home and measuring their own house punya land...LOL!!!) to a real JUNIOR INTERIOR DESIGNER!!!
Muahahaha...Don't get jealous of me cause I'm not earning much still and nope, its not in SGD =( BUT its already good enough to get 'promoted' even its like during the shity economy downturn now =P Hehehe...NOW I believe good things do come after all yea *wink*
Current status: final project in progress Work done: 15%, if considering all the stages I supposed to complete by Week 14 (Now its already Week 12)
Well, it might sound a lil bit strange to talk about this topic here but *sigh* lately I kinda find myself having this weird thought and its all about how I got afraid of DEATH (Ei, don't or stop laughing if you are now...Slap you then you know...) Seriously, I am not joking can.
'What if tomorrow comes but I can no longer find myself wake up back to the world anymore...I mean like die and gone just like that?'
Seriously, these days around I think I have the right over my current situation which somewhat dragged me in thinking about this whole thing and as for myself, I also not sure why and what caused me to have this painstaking breathing problem and to make the matter worst, I have been getting chest pain whenever I try to inhale or sit up from a lying down position...*sob sob* BabyNey is dying =(
'What if tomorrow comes and I am lying unconsciously in bed and nobody knows or found out until I am dead?'
Ok, set emo aside...Well, I think (not judging this professionally) one of the possible reason that cause me all this might be the stress and not did I ever mentioned that whenever I have too much of stress over work, my whole body will shakes like how the drug addicts do when they don't or stop taking drugs anymore?
Don't believe huh? Seriousss la...Why la I wanna joke about all this while I personally think its not funny to even joke about...Anyway, this sudden death shit is all what I am really afraid of and seriously if it ever happen to me...Heres some message I want to leave for you people around me (Families, friends, buddies, classmates, my blog readers and so on...)
I love you guys and thanks for everything when I was here in the world to feel your love. Nothing means more than the memories we shared and do take good care of yourself.
Before I start blogging on this post, let me fill you with the VERY inspiring song that got me feel much better after all the incidents that put me down lately...
Here you go the song sang by a group of famous female artists for the Standing Up for Cancer Event...They are Mariah Carey, Beyonce Knowles, Mary J. Blige, Fergie, Leona Lewis, Natasha Bedingfield, Sheryl Crow, Carrie Underwood, Miley Cyrus, Rihanna, Ashanti, Nicole Scherzinger and LeAnn Rimes
Just Stand Up
Everything will be alright, yeah Alright, yeah
Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think It’s like it can go through anything And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though
Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away Ain’t got the patience for the pain And if you don’t believe it look into your heart the beat goes on
Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that Things get better Through whatever If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up
Sheryl: Don’t you know you can go be your own miracle
Beyonce: You need to know
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don’t give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
Fergie: It’s like we all have better days Problems getting all up in your face
Leona: Just because you go through it
Fergie: Don’t mean it got to take control, no
Leona: You ain’t gotta find no hiding place
Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate
Leona: Don’t wanna let your mind keep playin’ you
Keyshia: And sayin’ you can’t go on
Rihanna: I’m tellin’ you that
Miley: Things get better Through whatever
Rihanna: If you fall
Miley: Dust if off, don’t let up
LeAnn: Don’t you know you
Natasha: Can go
LeAnn: Be your own
Natasha: Miracle
Carrie: You need to know
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don’t give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
Mary: You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind
Ciara: If you fall, dust it off
Mary: You can live your life
Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah
Mary: Let your heart be your guide
Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah
Mariah: And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good
Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
Mary: And it will get better
Mariah: Through whatever
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what Don’t give up THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
Fergie: You got it in you, find it within You got in now, find it within now You got in you, find it within You got in now, find it within now You got in you, find it within Find it within you, find it within Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
Oh yea, before I forgot...I've got something to announce to everybody :
I've finally got the confirmation email from Nuffnang for the invites to the Mamma Mia The Movie PREMIER SCREENING at GSC, OneU on the 22nd September 2008, next Monday at 9pm!!!
Yeah yeah yeah~ I am so damn happy when I checked the email just now...Hehehe...Don't jealous of me =P (Haha...Sorry la, I'm totally hacked by Lynn's bimbotic virus now) Anyway, this is something I should feel proud of...Iya, dah la this is the very first time I tried blogging about a movie before I even get to watch it AND not to mentioned how cool is it for a beginner in Nuffnang to receive such priviledge...Hehehe (See la Lynn, you SHOULD sign up and become one of the Nuffnanger also =P)
Hmm...So what I am going to do with a pair of tickets I have now? Well (again don't jealous of us), I am going to treat my buddy TineTine for the movie this time...Hehe...Its been long since our last watched-together-movie eh? Enchanted at Sunway Pyramid, remember? Hahaha...Damn, I so totally remember every single moment of it =)
Heheh...Thinking of writing her a very 'special' dating notes since people so bad never pick up my call and not replying my msg until now...Okla, I will make you embaress 9 9 in the public =P
Dear TineTine babe, can I date you for a movie PREMIER, not?
Hahaha...I know she will probably slaughter me when she finally see this but heck, who asked you never reply *Evil grin* Eh, still got other people want to watch it leh...Lynn is next in the waiting list and if happened that we all can't make it, lots of other Nuffnangers are waiting leh!!! See Ney so good put you on the priority list =P Let me know fast fast la...
*Updated news* TineTine cant make it cause she worried of the next day's CRIT...Sighhh =( Ney feel really disappointed but nevermind...Lynn is going with me =)
Aihhh...Now I believe everything is gonna be alright if you trust in the good and follow your heart!!! Keep the feet on the ground and face your head up buddies...Ciaoz~
Strike the numbers above and you will probably be as UNLUCKY as I am...
Sigh...My laptop's hard disc fucked up in this very special day of the FINAL semester...YES, let me remind you again...ITS FINAL SEMESTER!!! Basically, everything inside are gone...No back up (Well, actually got...BUT, I deleted the files in the morning before this shit happened) and needless to say in retrieving anything I had just finished for this semester... SIGH~ To top thing worst, my VERY PRECIOUS interior design pictures and material samples are also GONE TOO!!! How great is that to be???
Arghhh...I just feel like giving up everything...VERY VERY HARD FEELING to see all your work gone just like that and you can't help much but to stay there watching time pass by and the lecturers will just probably be annoying you to hurry up in your progress...
Sighhh...At this point I am just filled with much depression, frustration and more anger towards myself...I hate mylife, I HATE MYSELF!!!
Just woken up by a dream actually...Well, a dream that got me crying so bad after so long is definitely got something to blog about isn't it?
Hmm...Whats about it anyway?
Oh well, I wouldn't say its a bad dream after all but rather something that got me worried and started to think deep...Sigh, I am feeling so lost and stuck...I mean in my life...I don't know what are my plans anymore...For once and all, I no longer have the instinct of what I should be doing in a couple years of time from now...I don't have my dream, I don't have any aims...I am so so lost of direction of where I should be going and doing...
In the dream, I remembered my Mom asking me what are my dreams in life...To a shock, I paused and started to panic...I don't have any actually, I answered...But not long later I also explained the average designer's dream...I mean we designer want to design something for the future that the products itself are function-able and of course this must have become the satisfaction of what and why we chose to be in the creative problem solving industry...Righttt???
Sigh...Don't know la...Been feeling emo and stress and lost and sad and and and...SIGH!!!
Okla, I think I shouldn't influence you guys too...Nitez and much love~
Oh well...Practically in another 3 more months to go, I am gonna graduate from the ugly-black-uni and start calling myself a qualified Interior Designer then...WOW~ *exaggerate the gagak effect a bit* Hmm...Its been long and draggy 5 years of studies and now that I wonder how would my life be like as a designer in the practicing built environment industry? Designer, a person who design something, are usually implies being creative in a particular area of expertise, which often than not, being responsible for developing the concept and also to make drawings or models for something new that will be made by someone else... Their work often takes into the consideration of not only how something will look like but also how it will be used and how it will be made...In this case, it pretty much explained the saying of FUNCTIONALITY over aesthetic or form follow function!!! Then and again, the working styles and principles of each designers in the same profession are often at a GREAT difference!!! Design has no right or wrong in justifying one's idea but rather the matter of how oneself perceive things going...After all, I guess I wouldn't have much problem dealing with life as such in the future since I had already determined my choice of life long before I enrolled into this course and now that I am finally completing it soon to proceed to the next level of life changes =D Looking forward and I believe bright future waits ahead!!!